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life was lyke meaniingless ... dunn0 whyy wh0le pe0ple n0 feeliing liia0 ... d0es'nt feel sadd ... d0es'nt feel happy ... feel n0thiing ... wiish t0 cryy ... but cann0t cryy 0ut ... dunn0 whyy feel l0nely at every sec0nd ... every miinutes ... every h0ur ... as if s0meb0dyy is leaviing mii and n0t g0iing t0 c0me backk ... heart fuckkiing paiin ... feel lyke wann t0 em0 ... but c0ntr0l myself n0t t0 em0 ... but it failed ... sittiing in fr0nt 0f the c0mputer ... l00kiing at the screen ... dunn0 d0 wadd ... bl0ckked hiim fr0m msn ... deleted all his smses deleted all hiis thiing ... but dunn0 whyy juz cant st0p thiinkiing ab0ut hiim ... wh0le mind wass hiim ... thiink till at the bi0 lab there ... where we first la ci ... thiink till at the 2nd fl00r study c0rner staircase there ... where we fiirst liip t0 liip ... thiink till 0utsiide the general 0ffiice ... where we fiirst h0ld hand ... thiink till the the 2 days at the swimmiing p00l ... where he hug and kiss mii ... thiink till giiviing 0ut flyer wiith hiim ... thiink till all thiis happy mem0riies ... dunn0 whyy tears startiing c0miing 0ut ... thiink till when at r0ckyy h0use d0wnstaiir de mailb0xx ... he chase mii awayy ... thiink till when we sneaked iinsiide r0cky h0use ... he chase mii awayy ... thiink till he ign0red mii de every m0ment ... tears falliing m0re and m0re ... thiink till the s0ng lyrics .. whiich i wann tell hiim ... thiink till the wayys he treat mii ... lyke hell but i als0 t0lerate it and treat it as n0thiing ... thiink till the wayy he h0ng mii backk when i was angry ... s0 happy ... thiink till he keep sayiing other gals name ... t0lerate it and treat it as n0thiing ... thiink till the way he care f0r mii ... lyke hell ... thiink till the wayy i helpp hiim and i treat hiim ... wh0le dayy at there thinkkiing all this thiing ... i juz cant f0rget it ... dunn0 whyy ... my miind wass full 0f all thiis thiing ... really dunn0 wadd t0 d0 ... really dunn0 dunn0 wadd t0 d0 ... haiiz ...