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Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Today is tuesday ....he was sick ... but ... i cannot care for him ... coz ... he got stead le .... he never tell his stead coz ... his stead will cry ... from here i can see that he really really like his stead ... i fell like i am extra ... super super extra ... today i went to the modern dance then saw his name on the book ... i was so shock ... but my wish is for him to go ... coz ... the only times i can be alone with him ... the heaven give me this time so wad ... there nothing we can do to change it ... he won accept me means won accept de ... he like his stead so much do u think he will change ? ... i think won ... i told him a phrase ... ' things that does not belong to me means do not belong to me ' ... i told him this phrase is that ... he does not belong to me ... so no matter how i snatch how i break then ... how good i treat him ... he still does not belong to me ... this thing won change de ... dunno y everytime at recess i feel like crying ... really dunno dunno y ... i really wanna to thank him that ... he still give me a chance to chat wif him every night ... but ... our relationship so long is juz only friend ... FRIEND ... i dun wan that ... but there nothing i can do to change it ... really nothing i can do to change it ... i really feel bad .... he sick i also cannot care for him ... i really really very extra ... very very extra ... tomorrow modern dance ... i hope he can go and he will go ... really really hope that ... heaven already give me a chance to be with him ... but it is only a short moment ... really really short moment ... although it is very precious to me but i think to him is he and his stead more precious ... i admit i jealous but i am the people who wrong first ... wrong at i should not like him ... wrong at i should not tell him i like him ... really dunno wad to do ... my wish is to be with him ... but i noe i won success de ... 100% won success de ... but i wanna to tell him ... thank you for letting me have this beautiful and nice moment ... really thank you ... nothing i can said le ...
FallenAngel
22/07/2008
10.13pm
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Today is monday ... i am so happy that yesterday he call me and ask me to wait him at the kakit bukit cc ... but ... i not happy because he ask me to go to skool first ... haizZZz ... when we are walking ... the feeling that he give me is that ... aiya ... dunno how to said lar ... really really happy ... i said to myself that i wish the moment won end ... the road will be a never ending road ... and we will be walking till never end ... i really thanks him for giving me this beautiful moment ... at classroom ... he ask me to help him find gals to be his gan mei ... i dun wan ... coz .... i scare he like other gal ... but i respect his decision and help him ... but ... if he let me choose ... i would said i dun wan ... really dunno wad to do ... my senior said that ... he very flirt but i dun believe it ... i trust my ownself and i trust him ... althought his hair style look not nice ... but i will like him ... if u really like a people .. no matter he become how bad or how bad he treat u ... u will still like him de ... NAT today come back leh .... very happy l0l .... class without him will die de ... coz .... he not in class the class very quiet and many people feel uncomfortable ... but ... he change le ... change a bit l0l ... never disturb me le ... haizZZz ... i not serious in anything but i serious in love ... i dunno y ... juz feel like ... haizZZz ... very sad ... i feel that i am breaking him and his stead ... when he ask me to wait him ... i told myself that ... it is only friend waiting ... but not he like me ... but ... dunno y keep thinking that he like me ... sianZZ ... tml then said barh ...
FallenAngel
21/07/2008
3.07pm
Today is sunday ... another 1 week never post ... during this week ... it can said it is my happiest day ... he noe i like him and ... we chat ... althought i drag my phone in and he chat wif my friend never chat wif me ... i admit i was not happy and jealous but ... ' Love cannot be force ' ... i cant force him to like me and juz dunno y everytime when i am bored he wil appear in my mind ... i try to put him away and thing of some funny thing but no matter wad funny thing i think ... it will link me to him ... i really dunno y ... some people said ... ' i miss him too much coz ... i cant get him ' ... some people said ... ' because of friend ' ... i really dunno which wan .... i no that i have no rite to love him ... and i feel like i am a extra between he and his stead ... but ... this few days i been trying to think of a way to forget him .. treat him as friend but i dunno y i juz cant do it ... he teaches me a lot of thing during the chat ... i really wish it won end ... but it end ... next saturday is my birthday .. i wish he can go out wif me and take it as celebrating my birthday wif me ... but ... he dun wan ... all this thing can only blame ownself for not looking a pretty as he wan ... today said until here ... no mood to say le ...
FallenAngel
20/07/2008
9.13pm
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Today is tuesday ... never post for 1 week le ... lazy lar ... without him in classroom is very very bored ... dunno y i miss him so much as a friend ... today ... many things happen ... another another another him yesterday go disturb other people then today the people brother come find another another another him and wanna to whack him ... then he cried ... i dunno y when he cry the tears fall down ... i feel so heart pain ... i find it strange ... i dun like him le y i so heart pain ... anyway i think it is a concern of friend l0l .... then another another him ... which is he 3 years best friend ... dunno y suddenly cried .... i thought he also get whack but ... he never get whack ... he cried is because he care for his friend ... hahax ... first time see boys so good care for friend de ... today i saw him with they all when it was literature ... he look more handsome then him and another another another him l0l ... dunno y i think i like him already ... but i think he dunno l0l .... so many things happen .... haizZZz ... i was teacher ask to be a spy in class .... =.='' forst day do spy get burst le ... but i will continue to help teacher ... but i wanna to tell my friends ... sorriie ... coz ... i dunno how to said lar ... wan to sleep le ... buaiis ...
FallenAngel
15/07/2008
9.12pm
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Today is tuesday ... he never come to school ... because he on sunday night had a fall and was in the hospital ... his left eye due to the fall lost a lot of vision ... i was so sad and i dunno wad to do and i was worried about him ... i was thinking that would he ask me that question ... if 1 one my eye is blind would u still like me ... if wonder if he could still ask me the question ... i hope won l0l ... coz ... i dunno how to answer to him ... but i dunno who he like nw ... i wanted to visit him in the hospital but i dunno which hospital he is in ... if i am not wrong ... it should be the ... Changi General Hospital ... coz ... it is nearest to his home and normally ambulance would send injured people to the nearest hospital ... i was thinking about how to stop worrying about him ... and my friends told me to relax ... i dunno if i can do that but ... i really worried for him ... i juz now sms him and said ... how r u now ... u ok le mah ... but he never reply .... after a while ... he reply said ... no ... then i said ... no ... then i dunno wad to said le ... but i really dunno wad to said le ... i wann to ask him a question which is ... nw who do u like ... peggy ... lynette ... joyce ... me ... or anna ... but i dun dare ... i noe he will not reply and i really dun dare to said ... haiz ... dunno y heaven wanna treat him like that l0l ... wan to do project le ... thats all ... buaiis
FallenAngel
8/07/2008
5.41pm
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Today is saturday ... yesterday never post is because got camp ... on friday ... in class he was not happy and he keep scold me fuck face .. but i ignore him .. i dun wanna to make him more angry and angry ... then chinese teacher ask to pass the book to see how to do the return back i pass to him and he throw it back to me and it hit my back and it was pain ... feeling like many thing knock u ....then after that he push his table forward and it hit me ... chinese teacher scold him ... but i never said anything ... then he suddenly sms me ... i noe there is msg but i dun wanna to see ... and recess time ... i saw the msg and wad he said was very very hurting ... i at recess ... dun feel like eating ... i was very very very very very sad ... i wanna to cry but i dun dare ... coz ... i dun wanna let him noe i cry ... then my friend said cry le u will feel better ... then i cry ... i really feel better a little bit ... when recess was over ... he ask my friend said i got sabo him the water cap ... my friend said never ... then he starting to take my pencil box and he take all the pen inside and he throw one by one to the wall and i ask my another friend pick it up for me ... then he dunno y ask me can go bedok inter ... i said cannot ... he ask me y ... i said coz... i got camping ... i dunno y he keep asking me to go bedok inter ... then after school he go seperate way i also go seperate way ... then i go home ... i take my camping bag .. and i come back to school ... the bag was fucking heavy l0l ... then my camping friend said not heavy ... then i put my bag inside and change to PE attire and assemble at the astro turf ... then we take bus ... go to the bedok reservoir and play the dragon boating ... walao ... damn fun l0l ... there is over 40 plus people and we take 4 boat ... 10 people in each boat ... then we from 4.30pm play until 6.00pm ... before we go ... the 4 boat have a race .. and we came in 2nd ... then we assemble and we go change into dry attire ... then we take bus go back school .... after that ... debrief ... then eat dinner ... the dinner was quite good l0l ... drumstick rice ... then after eating was about 8.00pm then we starting to play CAMPUS BREAKER ... it was fun ... and then bout 10.00pm we girls was seperate into 2 groups ... A and B ... i am in group B ... then group A go bath and we group B go eat supper ... then switch ... group B go bath ... group A go eat supper ... then debief again ... then bout ... 11.45pm ... lights off and we will supose to sleep ... but i cant sleep ... dunno y l0l ... then next morning i wake up automatic ... and it was 5.40am ... then we go brush teeth and we assemble at the parade square ... walao ... the hall is damn cold l0l ... after assmebling .... debrief again which i dun like ... then breakfast ... about 8.00am ... we will have finish eating the breakfast ... then do the aces day dance ... wahkao ... damn diffcult l0l ... then after that about ... 10.30am ... we assemble at the parade square ... then we play the unlimate showdown ... it was fun ... there is seekers and bomers ... we bomers have to bomb the emenies and the seek will attack them ... then we never listen to the leader ... then leader keep calling us and we never reply coz .... we will busy throwing the water bag at one another ... then the leader as we all come gather and site there and he call all the facilitator and IC to the back ... and he dunno talk wad to them .... then he come back and he ask we all to be in push up position and and our head cannot look up ... then he suddenly said ... IC .... fired !!! ... then we will being thorw water bag by the IC ... and we will all wet ... then the leader said .... sorriie ... it was a prank only ... then we went to the hall to change to dry clothes then assemble again .... then area cleaning .... then after that we sit at the hall like idiots ... then all wan to sleep le .... then the leader come and talk to us ... it wa about 12.00pm plus plus then he talk talk talk ... then we fill up the survey form and then debrief again ... then go home l0l .... 1.00pm then reach home .... then i was very hungry coz ... our breakfast is at 7.00am plus plus in the morning and then there is no lunch provided ... then go home faster cook maggie to eat ... then watch tv ... then bath ... then write l0l ... hmmm ... the sportsleader camp was fantastic ... nth to said le ... buaiis
FallenAngel
05/07/2008
4.14pm
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Today is thursday ... monday tuesday and wednesday never post because ... dun wan post ... dun like post and lazy to post ... today .. is mt saddest day of all most saddest saddest day .. he dun wanna to talk to me le ... but before that ... at the chinese class he ask me can go bedok inter ... i say can .. actually i can de ... then he ask me again .. can go bedok reservoir see movies i pay the ticket fees .. i find it strange ... bedok reservoir got cinema meh .. then i said i cannot go ... because i got girl guide today ... earlier i never said is because i forgot today got girl guide ... and then the lesson end ... he pass the phone to teacher and ask teacher to remind his father to sign the edusave form ... then said a while the teacher started to complain to his father ... then my friend suddenly said ... throw water cap ! ... i was nothing to do and i said it also ... then he started to be angry ... then i suddenly remember that dunno is he or another another another another him take my thrumbdrive ... coz ... he said another another another another him said my thrumbdrive inside got song ... indeed inside is song ... and another another another another him said he said inside got song ... i also dunno is another another another another him or he take de ... then teacher said wan me to search his bag and i said i dun wan .. i said i dun wan and i give the thrumbdrive to him then teacher call my friends to search ... then cant find the thrumbdrive ... then after that he ask me to watch out my thing will lost ... i told teacher that and teacher ask me to take care my things alone ... and teacher said ... treat him as transparent and ignore him ... i but cant do that ... then he started feeling angry and he walk away ... then at afternoon ... after the girl guide ... i sms him and said ... u angry me har ... he said u think ... i said yes rite ? ... he said obvious ... then i said wad u angry ... he said our friendship or maybe more than that has ended so dun talk to me anymore ... i saw it i wanna to cry ... then i play audition with my friend ... 150bmp fm i cant do de and i cannot win her de ... then dunno y after reading that msg i can do the fm and i win her ... i was chionging and she noe i am chionging ... and i noe that .... dun talk to him is also a good thing coz ... can concentrade on studies and as for the 3 ... see first barhhs ... i really really feeling sad ... on monday tuesday wednesday .... i was not talking to him ... and i feel very heartpain ... he call me ba0bbeiix ... chio bu ... and friend ... and many many more but i never answer him ... i feel so heart pain ... but i noe that is the only way to forget him ... feeling so heartpain but there is nothing i can do .... sometimes i feel that he really like me ... sometimes i feel that he is playing wif him ... i also dunno y l0l ... but i really really really like him ... i make him angry is also good ... coz ... he angry he won talk to me and i won like him so easily ... but i will remember wad he said in that message ... thats all i wanna to said today ... tomorrow then talk barh ... buaiis
FallenAngel
03/07/2008
8.21pm
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