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Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Wiith0ut Hiim De 1 Dayy ..
Wiith0ut Hiim De Fiirst Dayy ... life was lyke meaniingless ... dunn0 whyy wh0le pe0ple n0 feeliing liia0 ... d0es'nt feel sadd ... d0es'nt feel happy ... feel n0thiing ... wiish t0 cryy ... but cann0t cryy 0ut ... dunn0 whyy feel l0nely at every sec0nd ... every miinutes ... every h0ur ... as if s0meb0dyy is leaviing mii and n0t g0iing t0 c0me backk ... heart fuckkiing paiin ... feel lyke wann t0 em0 ... but c0ntr0l myself n0t t0 em0 ... but it failed ... sittiing in fr0nt 0f the c0mputer ... l00kiing at the screen ... dunn0 d0 wadd ... bl0ckked hiim fr0m msn ... deleted all his smses deleted all hiis thiing ... but dunn0 whyy juz cant st0p thiinkiing ab0ut hiim ... wh0le mind wass hiim ... thiink till at the bi0 lab there ... where we first la ci ... thiink till at the 2nd fl00r study c0rner staircase there ... where we fiirst liip t0 liip ... thiink till 0utsiide the general 0ffiice ... where we fiirst h0ld hand ... thiink till the the 2 days at the swimmiing p00l ... where he hug and kiss mii ... thiink till giiviing 0ut flyer wiith hiim ... thiink till all thiis happy mem0riies ... dunn0 whyy tears startiing c0miing 0ut ... thiink till when at r0ckyy h0use d0wnstaiir de mailb0xx ... he chase mii awayy ... thiink till when we sneaked iinsiide r0cky h0use ... he chase mii awayy ... thiink till he ign0red mii de every m0ment ... tears falliing m0re and m0re ... thiink till the s0ng lyrics .. whiich i wann tell hiim ... thiink till the wayys he treat mii ... lyke hell but i als0 t0lerate it and treat it as n0thiing ... thiink till the wayy he h0ng mii backk when i was angry ... s0 happy ... thiink till he keep sayiing other gals name ... t0lerate it and treat it as n0thiing ... thiink till the way he care f0r mii ... lyke hell ... thiink till the wayy i helpp hiim and i treat hiim ... wh0le dayy at there thinkkiing all this thiing ... i juz cant f0rget it ... dunn0 whyy ... my miind wass full 0f all thiis thiing ... really dunn0 wadd t0 d0 ... really dunn0 dunn0 wadd t0 d0 ... haiiz ... FallenAngel 300908 8.05pm
Sunday, September 28, 2008
T0dayy is sundayy ... siian ... after yesterdayy that p0st ... i went t0 my small aunt h0use ... learn t0 bake piineapple tarts ... damnn easyy l0rhh ... next tiime bake f0r my darliing nu er and er zii ... dunn wann larhh ... lata n0t niice ... after bakiing ... went backk t0 my c0usiin h0me ... dhhen i went t0 the haiir sal0n wiith my mum ... my biig aunt ... my 7th aunt ... my small aunt t0 washh haiir f0r t0niight dinner ... i first tiime washh haiir sii0l ... damn s0ng ... g0t massage s0me m0re .... dhhen the pe0ple use g00d shamp00 and c0nditii0ner ... dhhen after washiing g0 bl0w dryy ... wahsehh ... my haiir dry liia0 is curly de ... the pe0ple bl0w till straiight ... damn niice l0rhh ... my haiir ... dhhen after that backk c0usiin h0me bath ... bath lerh ... g0 t0 the magali there t0 attend my c0usiin weddiing diinner ... dhhen at there lerhh ... siit lyke b0ut 30min lyke that ... c0z ... we fiirst arriive marhh ... dhhen many pe0ple haven arriive ... waiit f0r the pe0ple t0 arriive ... dhhen 8pm startt ... dhhen at there ... mii and my 2 c0usiin driink till siia0 ... we driink ... casblerg ... hennessy ... red wiine ... and 1 dunn0 wadd wiine ... driink liia0 st0machh at there burniing ... haha ... my c0usiin face red lyke a t0mat0 ... my k0r face red lyke a m0nkey backsiide ... driink liia0 b0ut 12 ++ g0 my c0usiin h0me ... dhhen 1 + lyke that sleepp ... dhhen m0rniing wake up at 7 ... dhhen brush teeth ... bath ... change cl0thes ... dhhen g0 the patalliing jaya ... s0me where near sungeii bul0h ... g0 fetchh the briide haha ... at there wait till 10am ... the briidegr00m c0me liia0 ... haha ... mii + my c0usiin they all be the briidemaiid ... dun let the briidegr00m c0me iin ... dhhen we askk the briidegrr00m t0 siing s0ng ... dhhen siing lerhh ... askk t0 giive red packet ... am0unt 0f $888.888 dhhen the briidegr00m giive dunn0 h0w much ... my c0usiin take the red packet liia0 ... dhhen let the briidegr00m c0me iin ... haha ... an0ther stage t0 g0 ... he can c0me iin t0 the h0use ... but he cann0t went iin t0 the r00m ... c0z ... the briide in the r00m ... dhhen we askk hiim t0 saidd 5 language 0f i l0ve euu ... he saidd iin h0kkiien ... cant0nese ... chiinese ... engliish and 1 m0re is the jj that s0ng ... if n0t wr0ng is ' sayrang hero ' ... dhhen we let hiim c0me iin l0rhh ... c0z .. playy t00 l0ng liia0 ... but ... we hiide the briide sh0es ... dhhen let the briidegr00m fiind ... wahsehh ... he very fast fiind till ... dhhen g0 serve tea ... dhhen byebye t0 the briide and briidegr00m lerhh ... dhhen we g0 t0 my grandpa h0use ... dhhen sit f0r a whille ab0ut lyke 1+ we g0 lerhh ... dhhen n0thiing t0 saidd lerhh ... buaiis ...
FallenAngel
280908
8.03pm
Friday, September 26, 2008
T0dayy is saturdayy ... haiizz ... at malaysiia ... yesterdayy ... m0rniing 6.30 went macc ... eat 1 hashbr0wn and driink 1 lem0n tea ... dhhen g0 sku ... dhhen less0n ... dhhen recess ... dhhen exam ... after exam ... my darliing ... my er zii and nu er ... peii mii g0 h0me .. as they kn0w i will be g0iing backk malaysiia ... dhhen reachh h0me ... dhhen eat chiicken riice ... dhhen packk thiing ... hahax .... that junjiie ... my er zii ... my nu er ... at my d00r 0utsiide ... hahax ... keep peepiing ... dhhen b0ut 1.40 lyke that ... we start 0ur j0urneyy .. dhhen they at d0wnstaiir ... waviing byebye t0 mii ... g0t little biit cant bear t0 ... feel lyke cryiing ... my darliing went h0me ... by the tiime he c0me backk ... i alreadyy g0 liia0 ... dhhen at the car ... g0t i feeliing that i wann t0 cryy ... but ... i c0ntr0l my tears .. dun let it dr0p 0ut ... dhhen after cr0siing the checkp0int ... 3pm liia0 .. dhhen turn bakk ... saw till siingap0re ... feel lyke cryiing agaiin ... dhhen at the car ... verry verry siian ...listen t0 mp3 ... dhhen dunn0 whyy keep thiinkiing 0f my darliing ... he treat mii lyke hell lyke that dunn0 y i still thiinkiing hiim .... dhhen ab0ut 6pm ... we reach the sungeii b0l0h t0f ... dhhen at there ... we traffiic jam f0r 2 h0urss !!! siian till siia0 if n0t we reachh kep0ng liia0 .... dhhen ... dhhen b0ut 8+ ... we reachh jiinjiiang ... we t0 the haii jii there t0 eat malaysiia l0r mee ... dhhen eat liia0 b0ut 9+ dhhen call my darliing he never answer ... dhhen call my er zii ... dhhen talk b0ut 1miin dhhen hang ... dhhen a whiile m0re call my darliing ... dhhen he fiinally answer .. dunn0 y he treat mii lyke hell lyke that i still care f0r hiim and will miiss hiim ... dhhen eat liia0 g0 backk my c0usiin h0me ... dhhen call hiim agaiin ... dhhen never answer ... freakkiing siian ... dhhen dunn0 whyy suddenly g0 em0 liia0 ... dhhen cfall hiim agaiin ... dhhen n0 answer agaiin ... dhhen call agaiin ... fiinally g0t answer liia0 ... dhhen talk t0 hiim ... busyiing playiing game ... =.='' dhhen tell hiim saidd euu g0 playy game .. he saidd euu saidd de arhh ... dhhen i n0thiing t0 saidd ... dhhen talk a whiile dhhen hangg l0rhh ... dhhen at there em0 ... pr0 sii0l ... fiirst tiime ... em0 the wh0le niight ... dhhen m0rniing 8+ g0 brush teeth ... dhhen g0 bath ... dhhen g0 eat wiith my aunt and c0usiin theyy all ... feel lyke calliing hiim ... but i dunn wann t0 diisturb hiim ... t0dayy is saturdayy ... eiither he is playiing s0ccer 0r studyiing ... dunn wann diisturb hiim ... s0 c0ntr0l myself n0t t0 call hiim ... dhhen went t0 my biig aunt h0use ... dhhen stayy there a while ... dhhen we backk t0 my c0usiin h0use ... dhhen p0st l0rhh ... haiiz ... t0niight wan g0 drriiink my c0usiin weddiing dinner ... wiish i can driink till drunk and f0rg0t everythiing ... haiiz ... see fiirstr barhh ... buaiis
FallenAngel
27/09/08
11.43am
Monday, September 22, 2008
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FallenAngel
220908
8.55pm
Thursday, September 18, 2008
T0day is thursdayy ... verry verry happy dayy ... yesterdayy ... m0rniing g0 macc ... dhhen less0n ... dhhen recess ... dhhen less0n ... dhhen after sku ... slackk in sku ... dhhen saww till my ER ZII T0NY ... dhhen askk hiim c0me fiind mii ... dhhen 2.30pm at sku ... dhhen yiliin theyy all g0 remediial ... left mii al0ne ... dhhen askk t0ny c0me peii mii l0rhh ... dhhen call jasmiine g0 0ut 0f musiic rm dhhen we 3 at there chattiing ... playiing andd n0thiing l0rhh ... dhhen saww tiill b00n jiie ... t0ny g0 call hiim ... he wass takiing a b0x 0f c00kiies andd he askk if we wann t0 eatt ... we 3 saidd dunn wann ... dhhen 1 0f the b0ys g0 smashh the c0verr ... smassh till halfwayy .. the Princiiple c0me 0ut ... standdiing behiind 0f hiim .. he still dunn0 ... still at there smashiing ... we 3 + b00n jiie + 3 m0re dunn0 wh0 ... at there laughiing ... dhhen he f0undd it strange ... he turn behiind andd saww priinciple ... haha ... fuckkiing funny ... dhhen dhhen t0ny saidd wann briing mii g0 stepp h0use ... dhhen we g0 l0rhh ... bastard sii0l .. reachh the bl0ckk de he dunn wann tell mii whiich fl00r sii0l ... i guess myselff ... i remember stepp t0ld mii at 10 fl00r ... dhhen i press 10 ... t0ny never saidd anythiing dhhen i g0 fiind the d00r ... dhhen stupiid t0ny .. dunn wann tell mii whiich d00r ... dhhen veryy siian ... g0 t0 the t0p fl00r ... 13th fl00r ... dhhen saw till the gate t0p neverr l0ckk ...dhhen mii jasmiine and t0ny ... we keep askkiing t0ny t0 g0 ... c0z ... the gate keep m0viing ... as if 0n t0p g0t pe0ple ... dhhen jasmiine saidd is wiind ... s0 we askkt0ny t0 g0 checkk it 0ut ... dhhen t0ny cliimb till half wayy jumpp d0wnn ... he saidd is pe0ple ... dhhen the thiing keep m0viing ... fuckkiing scarry ... all run ... ruun t0 the staiir there ... dhhen g0t 1 s0fa ... i siit at there ... dhhen they 2 c0uple h0r ... my me jeal0us till siia0 ... at there hugg kiss hugg kiss ... t0ng they 2 buayy tiia0 ... stephenn r0ckky and junjiie g0 swiimmiing ... dhhen 3.30pm lerhh ... dhhen i sms yiliin saidd i siick i never g0 swiimmiing p00l ... dhhen i call yiliin ... yiliin saidd m0rderrn dance cancell ... i fuckkiing happy l0rhh ... dhhen t0ny wann g0 swimmiing p00l fiind dhhen ... he dragg jasmiine ... jasmiine g0 drag me ... dhhen g0t dragg iint00 the taxii ... dhhen g0 swimmiing p00l l0rhh ... dhhen buy tiicket g0 iin ... dhhen saw till n0 pe0ple de .. dhhen g0 t0 the deep p00l ... haha ... saw r0ckyy at there sh0utiing ... dhhen t0ny g0 0ut ... dhhen i dunn wann g0 0ut ... jasmiine g0 pull mii g0 0ut ... dhhen saww tii0 buy stephenn ... dhhen i fasterr g0 t0 the canteen ... dhhen siit under the benchh ... dhhen stephenn keep runniing awayy ... dhhen under the bencch bbq f0r 10 miins ... dhhen he c0me 0ut ... dhhen t0ny and jasmiine wann hiim t0 hug mii and kiss ... dhhen he hugg and kiss ... wad the ... s0 sh0ckk sii0l ... but HAPPY larhh ... dhhen g0 h0me tiime ... he use junjiie biicycle t0 riide mii backk ... alth0ught very very very very very sh0rt ... but i get a chance t0 hugg hiim ... dhhen chattiing wiith r0ckyy they call ... dhhen they g0 bath dhhen g0 h0me l0l ... dhhen t0dayy ... wake up ... g0 macc l0rhh ... dhhen g0 sku ... dhhen less0n ... dhhen PE ... wahh .. yiliin suddenly g0 h0me .... dhhen recess ... i never siit wiith huiliing they all ... i g0 fiind my precii0us nu er ... dhhen less0n l0rhh ... dhhen after sku ... i g0 my girl guiides ... dhhen 3+ c0me 0ut liia0 ... dhhen g0 interchange fiind stephenn l0rhh ... c0z ... he at there helppiing his m0ther giive flyyer .. dhhen we g0 the MRT there ... dhhen saw till miss rebekahh 0ng ... dhhen they giive 1 stackk t0 miiss 0ng ... dhhen g0 t0 the MRT iinsiide giive ... dhhen aar00n saw till chab0r .. but junjiie dunn0 .. he g0 take ... ti0 kan by aar0n ... hahax ... dhhen aar0n g0 liia0 ... dhhen g0 t0 the bl0ckks 0pp0siite ... fuuck sii0l ... kn0ckk da0 my t0es ... fuckkiing paiin ... make my darliing waiit mii ... PSPS .... dhhen walkk manyy bl0ckks ... alm0st dehydrate t0 deathh ... dhhen g0 buuy thiing ab0ut lyke 6++ lyke that ... g0 backk l0rhh ... dhhen g0 backk h0me l0rhh ... fiirst tiime reachh h0me at 7+ breakk rec0rd sii0l ... last tiime at least bef0re 6 will reachh h0me .. thiis tiime 7+ ... BREAK R0C0RD ... dhhen ... g0 NTUC .... they buy driinks me and jasmiine buy thiing ... dhhen g0 h0me l0rhh ... happiest day 0f all ... dun feel lyke g0iing t0 camb0diia ... sure miiss hiim till siia0 ... BUT ... WANNA THANKS MY DEAR ... ALTH0UGHT ANGRY S0 MANY TIIMES ... BUT THANKS F0R GIIVIING MII A BEAUTIIFULL MEM0RIIES AT THE SWIMMIING P00L AND T0DAYY ... '' THANKS S0 MUCHH '' ... '' I L0VE EUU ... (520) '' ... buaiis
FallenAngel
180908
8.53pm
Sunday, September 14, 2008
T0day is sundayy ... siian ... yesterdayy niight g0 bbq ... dhhen g0 backk h0me ... dhhen heard till my dear siick .... dhhen n0 m00d liia0 ... dhhen kn0wiing he g0iing mac ... i g0 mac als0 ... but we pretend dunn0 each 0ther ... dhhen g0 h0me l0l ... dhhen dunn0 d0 wadd ... chattiing wiif my nu er b0ut the watchiing sh0w at cinema de ... dhhen dunn0 d0 wadd ... dhhen g0 sleep l0l ... dhhen m0rniing wake up ... dhhen play maple .. yeahh ... level 52 liia0 ... dhhen play till 6+ g0 eat ... dhhen 8+ c0me backk l0l ... t0dayy is m00ncake lantern festival ... and 1 m0re biig day f0r mii and hiim yet he f0rg0t ... n0w i tell hiim ... is ... our LA CI 1 M0NTH ANNIVERSERY ... zzz n0thiing t0 celebrate ... 0ur last kiss is at 140808 ... 1 m0nth never kiss lerhh ... BREAK REC0RD !!!!!!! but i dun lyke it !!!! dhhen .. dunn0 d0 wadd l0l ... zzz ... yiliin saidd step cute siia ... CUTE !! CUTE !! CUTE !! haha ... n0thiing t0 saidd lerhh ... buaiis ... s0me m0re
FallenAngel
140808
8.21pm
GET WELL SOON MY DEAR
Friday, September 12, 2008
T0day is friday ... m0od ok ok l0l ... m0rniing father send mii t0 sku ... fr0m sku walk t0 mac ... dhhen g0 fiind my dear ... dhhen g0 sku l0l ... the teacher h0r .. keep n0tiiciing my friinge ... zzz s0 i piin it up ... lyke a iddi0t when i piin up ...dhhen suddenly ... the dm ... disipliine master ... wann t0 check 0ur bag f0r thiing ... penkniife als0 will ti0 caught ... luckyy ... i keep my penknife at h0me ... ** phew ** ... dhhen class l0l ... dhhen recess l0l .. dhhen class agaiin l0l ... after sku ... g0 eat .. zz .. my that s0 call ' dear ' thr0w mii al0ne at the 7-11 dhhen juz g0 away with n0 newss ... he d0esnt n0e h0w t0 thiink that i will w0rriied de ... chii h0ng ... this is the 2nd tiime liia0 ... aiyya ... sua larhh ... he wann dump mii awayy there is als0 n0thiing i can d0 ... juz let hiim dump l0l ... angry .. sad ... als0 n0 use de ... wahh ... 1pm g0 take taxii with teacher ... g0 t0 ' Inn0va Junii0r C0llage ' t0 see if i have g0tten the bl0g c0mpetiti0n prize ... 1pm taxii .. 1.45 dhhen riich ... s0me where near the w00dland there (tuas) ... dhhen at there scr0ll till 2 .45 dhhen g0 int0 a r00m .. lyke a sh0w r00m lyke that ... dhhen they talk talk talk ... talk till i wann t0 sleep ... dhhen giive 0ut priize tiime @ ... there g0t 5 br0nze 3 silver and 1 g0ld ... i g0t a br0nze !!! at there ... 4 br0nze was giiven 0ut left 1 m0re br0nze ... dhhen i thinkiing ... 1 m0re br0nze if i dun get it ... the silver and g0ld n0 need thiink liia0 ... dhhen very sadd ... dhhen when the pe0ple ann0unced the last br0nze g0 t0 bed0k t0wn ... wahh ...i fuckiing happy ... wh0le pe0ple jump up ...dhhen the first prize g0es t0 changkat changii sec0ndary .... teacher help us take photo dhhen g0 backk sch00l l0l ... reachh sku at ab0ut 4.45pm ... dhhen teacher saidd next year wann put mii incharge ... g0 j0iin agaiin ... dhhen g0 h0me l0l ... dhhen eat l0l ... dhhen watch tv l0l dhhen wriite l0l ... zzz siian ... buaiis ... f0rg0t liia0 ... t0day 0ur liip t0 liip kiss 1 m0nth anniiversery ... buaiis
FallenAngel
120908
8.26pm
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
T0day is tuesday .. 1 0f my saddest dayy ... siian ... m0rniing g0 mac ... dhhen g0 sku ... dhhen recess .... dhhen we sittiing 0n the t0p table ... l00k d0wn can see dhhem ... dhhen less0n ... dhhen i dunn0 sms wadd t0 hiim .. dhhen i saidd ... n0w dhhen i n0e i am n0t imp0rtant t0 euu ... he never reply my sms ... thiis cann pr0ve that i really n0t that imp0rtant t0 hiim ... dhhen he saidd after sku talk t0 mii ... i fuckkiing scare .... i scare wadd he wanna saidd t0 mii is wadd i dunn wanna t0 liistenn dee ... s0 i keepp runniing awayy ... durriing less0nn ... i use penn t0 draw ... a heart shape ... put ' s ' insiide ... dhhen put ' tephen ' next t0 it ... dhhen i draw a biig heart ar0und it ... the ' heart shape stephen ' is h0w imp0rtant he is t0 mii ... the big heart shape ar0und it is h0w much i l0ve hiim ... after kn0wiing that i am n0t imp0rtant t0 hiim at all ... i went t0 the toilet straiight away .. wanna washh the away wadd i had wiite 0n my handd ... i can washh away the ' heart shape stephen ' but i cant washh awayy the biig heartt .... n0 matter h0w many s0app i putt ... h0w hardd i rubb ... rubb till my hand the skiin als0 c0me 0ut ... i still cant washh awayy ... dhhen i keepp askkiing myselff ... y cant i washh away the biig heart ... dhhen finally i n0e the answer ... it is because that my l0ve t0 hiim is t0tally unchangable ... dhhen i askk myselff ... cann i l0ve hiim lesser dhhen usuall ... dhhen my answer n0 need t0 thiink .. straiight away c0me fr0m my miind ... it saidd cann0t ... dhhen after sku he keep f0ll0wiing mii ... he call mii he saidd that he never g0 m0dern dance ... i sh0ckked tii0 and my heart was lyke g0iing t0 breakk ... dhhen he siit next t0 the bus - st0p there ... watchiing mii buyiing bubbletea ... he call mii i diid n0t plann t0 answerr hiis ph0ne de ... but yiliin dunn0 g0 sms hiim wadd thiing dhhen i saidd t0 yiliin ... i dare euu walkk t0 there ... n0t dare euu sms hiim ... dhhen yilin saidd ok ... dhhen she really walkk t0 there ...whenn at there lerhh ... dunn0 wann saiddd wadd ....dhhen he askk mii g0 behind ... dhhen we chat chat a while .... dhhen he saidd bye bye t0 mii ... dun0 y everytiime he saidd byebye t0 mii ... i will lyke fuckkiiing sadd ...dhhen i f0ld my skiirt ... fuckkiing sh0rt .. but i still saidd it l0ng ... c0z ... he dun let mii f0ld my skiirt ... but i insiisted ... i pr0persely f0lded till s0 sh0rt de ... i wanna t0 see h0w he resp0nd ... but he did n0t even resp0nd anythiing ... dhhen he saidd bye bye t0 mii agaiin ... KNN i was fuckkiing angry and sadd .. dhhen i walk away wiith yiliin and lynette ... dhhen i hiide behiind a wall and i criied ... the 2 ah ma g0 tell hiim ... as he did n0t plann t0 c0me ... dhhen he c0me liia0 i wiipe away my tears and he askk mii wadd thiing ... i saidd n0thiing ... dhhen he saidd byebye t0 mii agaiin ... zzz wh0le heart fall int0 pieces ... while walkkiing t0 fiind dhhem ... my tears burst 0ut ...dhhen he chase mii t0 sku ... i ign0red hiim ... he call mii i never answer ... c0z ... i dunn wann answerr ... dhhen i at sku ... i start t0 buy l0t 0f thiing t0 eat t0 make myself n0 feeliing ... dhhem after that ... g0 t0ilet v0miit .... =,= '' t00 full liia0 ... dhhen g0 change cl0thes f0r m0dern dance ... dhhen he dun wan c0me in t0 m0dern dance ... after m0dern dance fiinishh ... he f0ll0w r0cky h0me ... dhhen the m0st funny thiing is that .. he call mii ... i dun iintendd t0 answerr ... dhhen i pass the ph0ne t0 yiliin ... yiliin helpp mii answerr ... and he th0ught yiliin is mii ... dhhen talk talk talk ... dhhen yiliin askk hiim ... d0 euu n0e wh0 i am ... he saidd 0livia ...haha but i am n0t the wann wh0 is listeniing ... is yiliin ... dhhen mii yiliin and huiliing and jiia yii keep 0n laughiing ... zzz n0w regret lerhh ... y i g0 laugh at hiim ... he is my 0wn steadd ... dhhen i feel that we play t00 muchh lerhh ... s0 i call hiim backk tell hiim that wann is n0t mii ... is yiliin ... he dunn beliieve ... =.='' haiizz ... he is treatiing mii s0 c0ldly juz because 0f spyy ... SPY !!! ... even if dunn have spy ... he als0 treat mii s0 c0ldly de larhh ... zz ... i cant standd the way he is treatiing mii n0w ... i cant juzz t0lerate it ... waiit till 1 dayy ... i g0 cut wriist diie liia0 maybe he m0re happy ... c0z ... he can ji0 s0me0ne he lyke ... maybe that is the beautiifull endiing f0r thiis st0ry ... zz siian ... askk hiim dun treat mii s0 c0ldly still wann try first ... askk euu bec0me sweeter veryy diffcult mehh .. askk euu treat mii m0re niicer veryy diffcult mehh .. askk euu giive mii ur attentii0n verry diffcult mehh ... askk euu take m0re tiime peii mii verry diffcult mehh ? ... 3 m0re week t0 exam ... after exam ... g0iing t0 be h0liidayy lerhh ...durriing the h0liidayy ... there is n0thiing we can d0 ... 0ur relati0nshiip c0uld juz be further and further ... if he still treat mii very c0ldly durriing this 3 weekk ... he sure will regret it ... zz i n0t wann hiim t0 treat mii g00d in thiis 3 week but i wann hiim t0 treat mii g00d everytiime but n0t giiviing mii c0ld sh0ulder andd keep 0n sayiing byebye take care all thiis thiing t0 mii ... haizz ... dunn0 y heaven dunn wann let mii washh awayy the biig heart in my hand ... maybe ... dunn0 ... dunn wann saidd lerhh ... saidd s0me m0re my tears g0iing burst 0ut lerhh ... but i will remember that i am n0t imp0rtant t0 hiim this thiing ... haizz ... buaiis
FallenAngel
090908
7.08pm
Monday, September 8, 2008
T0day is m0nday ... fuckkiing siian dayyy ... m0rniing 6.15 wake up g0 bathh ... dhhen 6.45 walkk 0n the wayy t0 mac ... dhhen at macc siit till 7.45 dhhen wake t0 sku ... dhhen less0n l0l ... dhhen recess ... hadd a little arguue wiith hiim ... make my heart iint0 piieces ... dhhen less0n agaiin l0l ... affter arguue wiith hiim at recess ... the wh0le less0n after recess dunn0 y i have been em0iing ... that stupiid NATHANIEL GAN make me fell d0wn and my liip kn0ck 0n the table andd burstt ... bl00d came 0ut ... zzz fuckkiing paiin ... dhhen h0me ec0n0my ... slackk 10miins inn class ... chattiing wiif aar0n ... nat and they all ... dhhen after h0me ec0n ... maths ... zzz maths class em0 till sleep ... dhhen wake up by syahira .. c0z ... teacher c0me liia0 i still sleeppiing ... dhhen teacher sc0ld sc0ld sc0ld .. dhhen i at there blurr bluurr ... dhhen the teacher was fuckkiing funny ... hahax ... nathaniel call her ... miss sherilyn tan dunno wadd ... dhhen she saidd in chinese ' semo ' dhhen nat saidd ... buay song har ... buay song laii ... dhhen she saidd ... i buay song lehh ... how ? ... dhhen nat go up t0 her teachers table ... lyke gangster lyke that scold her ... dhhen she scold back nathaniel ... zzz ... fuckkiing funny ... dhhen nathaniel scold again ...dhhen she act very funnyly ... as if she g0t zuii lyke that ... dhhen nat go make her agaiin ... she use her high heel shoes bit nathaniel backside ... hahax ... m0st funny part ... dhhen st0p lerhh ... dhhen we 1.50 dhhen c0me 0ut ... came 0ut lerhh ... slackk at skuu till 2.30 t0 make 0ur plann ... zzz ... dunn0 is fail 0r pass ... zzz dhhen he lyke n0t talkkiing t0 mii lyke that ... dhhen dunn0 whyy l0l ... dhhen he liie t0 mii ... he saidd that maple pics he put gandph0ne backgr0und ... m0rniing i saw his ph0ne ... dunn have dee ... s0me m0re he break hiis pr0miised manyy tiime ... dhhen g0 h0me tiime l0l siince the plann cann0t acc0mplished ... dhhen they g0iing cycle i g0iing h0me ... zzz ... duunn0 y he sc0lded mii shuddup ... fuckkiing sadd l0l ... fiirst tiime tii0 sc0ldd by 0wn steaddd ... dhhen after that t0nny call hiim c0me backk ... backk liia0 he saidd he wann take bicycle ... n0t peiiing mii g0 h0me lerhh ...dhhen he andd r0ckky g0 lerhh ...i turn backk saww hiis g0 that back gr0unnd ... my tearss burst 0ut ... feel as if lyke he wanna leave mii ... dhhen wenn h0me ... cant eat anythiing ... dhhen sleep ... dhhen wake up dhhen p0st l0l ... wahh ... whhen i saw hiim g0iing wiith r0ckky ... dhhen my tearss wann burstt 0ut .. duun0 y ... y miind iis thiing that he wanna leave mii ... haiizzz ... in sku ... n0 pe0ple de place als0 scare g0t spy ... i g0t m0re spy dhhen hiim i dunn scare ... he scare ... zzz i dunn scare c0z ... i really l0ve hiim marhh ... even if my m0thet beat my tiilll in h0spital ... i als0 w0n care de ... haiz ... SPY SPY SPY SPY SPY ... everythiing spy .. !!!! ... i duunnn0 wadd t0 d0 lerhh larhh .... s0metiimes ... i wann tell hiim s0methiing ... i dunn dare t0 tell ... i fiind s0ng t0 express it 0ut .. but whenever i decided t0 d0 that ... it c0uld always faill ... eiither we argue 0r dunn0 wadd larhh ... aiya .. n0 m00d saidd lerhh ... buaiis
FallenAngel
080908
6.42pm
Sunday, September 7, 2008
T0dayy is sunday ... verry verry happy ... c0z ... t0m0rr0w is sku dayy ... cann meet my ba0bbeiix ... but ... sadd thiing is cann0t peii hiim after skuu ... need t0 g0 h0me ... siiann ... wiish t0 buyy cashh ... f0r maplee ... i wann redress my character ... i wann buy riing !! ... f0r my maple character ... yesterdayy 6 + middniight sleep ... m0rniing 12 + wake up by my m0ther ... zzz she dun let mii sleep ... dhhen play c0mputer l0l ... n0thiing t0 d0 ... em0 my ba0beiix l0l ... chattiing wiif my nu er and er zii .. dunn0 thiink wadd thiink till water ... dhhen thiink till last time .. s0me where arr0undd apprill ... nat ... r0ng weii ... denka .. p0ur water 0n mii .. the st0rry sis actually lyke thiis de ... m0rniing g0iing f0r assembly ... r0ng weii c0me fiind mii .. that tiime he was steadiing wiith yilin ... he wann mii t0 tell yiiliin that he wann a breakk ... that tiime yiliin haven c0me yet ... dhhen yiliin c0me lerhh ... she n0e s0methiing was g0iing 0n ... dhhen she keep 0n askkiing mii t0 tell her wadd happen ... i dunn0 wanna tell her as she at that tiime l0ve r0ng weii verry muchh ... r0ng weii wass the fiirst stead that she treat hiim seri0uslly ... i scare that she will be sadd ... unhappy and cry lyke mii ... zzz ti0 REJECT !!! s0 i did n0t plann t0 tell her ... but denka was lyke keep giiviing her hiint that s0methiing wass g0iing 0n ... dhhen i b0 biian ... tell her l0l ... tell her liia0 she was unhappy wiith mii ... did'nt wann t0 talk t0 mii .. s0 even the rest ... i wass lyke s0 c0nfuuse ... tell her als0 cann0t ... dunn tell her als0 cann0t ... dhhen 2nd peri0d PE .. i wass lyke very l0nely ... dhhen nat ... and r0ng weii keep c0nfr0ntiing mii .. but i wass lyke keep 0n blamiing r0ng weii ... funny thiing is that ... he diid n0t angryy ... dhhen dunn0 talkk untill wadd .. nat g0 sc0ld yiliin ... dhhen yiiliin saidd ... make untill lyke that ... the m0st happy wann is mii ... i dunn0 y i suddenly burst int0 tears ... sayyiing thatt ... i happy ... ? if i happy ... i c0uld n0t wann t0 hiide it fr0m euu ... juz straight away tell euu r0ng weii wann break with euu ... dhhen she n0thiing t0 saidd ... dhhen nat g0 sc0ld her f0r makiing mii cryy ... dhhen alm0st the wh0le week ... they never talkk t0 mii ... recess i dunn0 wann g0 wiith wh0 ... i call wangh0ng ... tell her that recess i g0iing wiith her ... she saidd ok .. i tell her ... cann0t ... i dunn tell her ... als0 cann0t ... i als0 dunn0 ... i tell her is c0rrect 0r n0t .. dhhen it was raiiniing ... after recess ... i dunno tell wadd t0 denka .. dhhen i saidd i dare denka wh0le b0ttle 0f water p0urr at mii ... denka really p0ur that water t0 mii ... dhhen he g0 tell nat ... nat g0 snatch my b0ttle ... it was full ... he 0pen the c0vered and he p0ur 0n mii ... zz ... raiiniing siia ... fuckkiing c0ld ... dhhen nat g0 refill the water .. water c00ler water .. s0me m0re is c0ld de ... p0ur 0n mii again ... the wh0le fl00r wass wett ... yiiliin they all juz l00kiing at mii blurlly .. dhhen sciience less0n ... fuckkiing c0ld ... have a slight fever in class ..dhhen the rest 0f the perii0d never p0ur liia0 ... dhhen after sku went h0me ... by the tiime i went h0me ... i alreadyy dry le ... this thiing i still remeber till n0w ... i als0 dunn0 y i let then p0ur water 0n mii ... siian ... after em0 this thiing ... 6+ g0 511 eat ... dhhen c0me h0me rite p0st l0l ... yes !!! tml sku liia0 1 week never meet my ba0bbeiix lerhh ... fuckkiing miiss hiim ... dun wan saidd lerhh ... buaiis
FallenAngel
070908
8.02pm
Saturday, September 6, 2008
T0day is saturday ... zzz ... s0 siian ... g0 ediit my skiins ... use 4 h0ur ++ t0 get it d0ne ... chii0ng maple 1 weekk liia0 ... fr0m level 49 chii0ng 1 week 0nly level 51 ... 3 level 0nlii ... better dhhen i stay at level 49 ... exchange acc0unt wiif my ba0bbeiix ... fuckiing riich ... planniing t0 buyy cashh ... t0 buyy 1 c0uple riing andd 3 friiendshiip riing ... wishhiing t0day is sunday ... tml cann g0 sku meet my ba0bbeiix liia0 ... t0day retiired .. never play maple ... wh0le dayy at h0me edit s0ngs ... yesterday 4 + sleep ... 7 + wake up .. need to wake my br0ther up ...after that cant sleep liia0 ... dhhen play maple till 9 ++ .. g0 watch tv till 11 + dhhen after that make the blog skiins l0l ... dhhen sms with my ba0beiix l0l ... dhhen i dunno l0l .... siiann ... dunn0 wann saidd wadd ... aiya .. buaiis
FallenAngel
0600908
3.39pm
Thursday, September 4, 2008
haizzz .... 11.59pm le ... 1 m0re miin t0 our 1 m0nth anniversery .... we will 0n ph0ne ... but .. he d0es not n0e that ... it is 0ur 1 m0nth anniversery and my best friend birthday ... he 0nly n0e that it is my best friend birthday but not our 1 month anniversery ... haizz ... wadd he saidd 0n ph0ne is s0 dissapp0intiing .... i really wiish i c0uld juz jump 0ut the wiind0w that it ... maybe ... his D0N WEII is m0re important to hiim barhh ... haiz ... 1 m0nth anniversery ... !! he can f0rget it ... dissapp0inted in hiim ... haizz ... see h0w lar ... buaiis
FallenAngel
050905
12.05am
T0day is thursday ... t0m0rr0w is anniversery ... he d0es seen t0 care it at all ... he wannted mii t0 delete the p0st earlier 0n ... i dunn wann ... i will delete it after 1 yeearr ... he saidd that the p0st very paiisehh ... i saidd paiisehh wadd ... he saidd ... paiisehh ... mii ... hiim ... and D0N WEII !!!! ... D0N WEII !! D0N WEII !! D0N WEIIIIIII !!!!! n0w dhhen i n0e ... hiis heart g0t 0nly D0N WEII ...fr0m we steadd till n0w .. i 0nly th0ught that hiis heart 0nly g0t mii ... there is n0 place f0r 0ther pe0ple ... but i am wr0ng ... he can still put in a d0n weii ... haizz ... D0N WEII AR D0N WEII ... D0N WEII AR D0N WEII ... i dunn understandd .. y everythiing we d0 must include D0N WEII .. WHYY ? ... realli wiish t0 n0e the answer ... s0me m0re ... i als0 wiish t0 n0e the answer ... y he DUN WANN t0 be lyke 0ther pe0ple s0 r0mantiic ... but he refuse t0 tell mii de answer ... haiizz ... y he dunn wann ... !!! i fiind it strange that .. m0st 0f the b0yss ... they c0uld wann it ... y he dunn wann it ... gals dunn wann it is n0rmall ... juz fiind it strange that he dunn wann ... i w0nderiing is he dunn wann 0r he dunn0 wadd t0 d0 ... haiiz ... seri0usly ... i dunn0 wadd is he thiinkiing .. i wiish i c0uld juz diissapearr in the w0rld that it ... haizz ... D0N WEII AR D0N WEII ... y everytiime d0n weii ... siiannz ... heard hiim saidd D0N WEII i wann suciide liia0 ... dunn wann saidd lerhh ... n0 m00d saidd liia0 ... buaiis
FallenAngel
040908
8.55pm
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
T0day is tuesdayy ... haiizz ... 3 m0re dayy t0 0ur 1 m0nth anniiversery ... i tell hiim yesterrdayy ... he d0es n0t seen t0 carre ... haiizz ... s0 l0ng neverr uppdatee ... c0zz ... manyy thiings happenn ... lazyy t0 wriite .... siiann ... we hadd 0ur fiirst liip t0 liip kiiss 0n 120808 and fiirst la chee 0n 140808 ... after thatt tiill now ... never kiiss le ... feel liike verry shii baii ... steadd untiil lyke thatt .... wadd he carre is n0t mii ... butt is 2e1 de d0n weii ... i talkk t0 hiim 0n ph0ne ... he alwayss d0n weii d0n weii d0n weii ... dhhenns ... yesterrdayy .. i askk hiim .... if lett euu ch00se wad euu wann t0 hugg ... wadd will euu hugg ... he answerr mii ... i wann t0 hugg euu andd D0N WEII ... i wass sh0ckked ... he saidd that d0n weii is iis bel0ved siister .... BEL0VED !! BEL0VED !! BEL0VED SIISTER ... when i saidd somethiing lyke .. IF d0n weii had MENTAL PROBLEM dhhenns wadd s0rt 0f thiing la ... whenn i havenn fiiniish sayiing ... he saidd D0N WEII D0ES N0T HAVE MENTAL PROBLEM ... i tell hiim saidd if only ... dhhenns he saidd n0thiing ... fr0m physiical d0ct0r siide t0 see ... alreadyy n0e he liike d0n weii ... hiis steadd he also neverr lyke thatt carre .. n0 need saidd siister ... s0me m0re theyy arre 0nly gann .. n0t real liife ... if real liife ... i n0thiing t0 saidd ... i feel thatt i amm a faiilure steadd ... g0t 1 pe0plle tell mii ... if he wass mii .. he alreaddy askk f0r a breakk ... i t0ld hiim saidd that .. i n0e ... if 0ther pe0ple wass mii ... theyy c0uld askk f0r breakk de ... i dunn wann breakk ... c0z ... i n0e thatt ... i hadd fallen f0r hiim and i cant bearr t0 let it endd ... i askk hiim saidd ... y euu dunn wann t0 be lyke 0ther pe0ple lyke thatt s0 r0mantiic ... he saidd ... HE DUNN WANN ... i wass sh0ckked ... he dunn wann ... dhhenns i askk hiim y he dunn wann ... he saidd cann0t tell mii de ... wadevaa thiing i askk hiim ... he als0 will add d0n weii iint0 it ... i tell hiis friienddz saidd ... i suspect he lyke d0n weii .. dhhenns i wann be iinvestiigat0rr t0 go checkk ... dhhenns hiis friienddz saidd n0 need ... i wass w0nderriing y dunn need ... i suspect thatt hiis friienddz alreaddy kneww s0methiing .... butt i neverr askk ... serii0uslly ... wadd i thiink is thatt ... he neverr carre mii bef0ree ... he 0nlyy carre f0rr hiis friienddz andd the s0ccerr ... i hiis steadd andd n0t hiis steadd .. n0 differenccess ... betweenn mii andd hiis BEL0VED SIISTER ... he carre hiis BEL0VED SIISTER m0re dhhenns mii ... siiannzz ... whyy pe0ple steadd s0 happy i steadd lyke n0 steadd lyke thatt de ... hiis biirthhday wiishes is wann me t0 gr0w tallerr ... ZZZ ... my biirthhday wiishes is t0 wann hiim t0 be lyke 0therr pe0ple lyke thatt s0 r0mantiic ... siiann ...
FallenAngel
020908
7.36pm
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