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Sunday, June 29, 2008
Today is sunday ... yesterday got nothing to said and can said it as dun wanna to said ... today i decided to change my skins ... but i saw the skins were not nice so i think i use this skins back more better ... as for him ... not thinking about him ... never even wanted to chat wif him ... as for another him ... very trouble leh ... his birthday coming l0l and i dunno wan to buy wat for him l0l ... for another another another him ... never chat and never talk since friday ... from yesterday until nw ... keep mapling but it is still in at the same level ... damn noob ... dunno wad to said leh ... tomorrow then said l0l .... buaiis
FallenAngel
29/06/2008
8.14pm
Friday, June 27, 2008
Today is friday ... first period is science and we went to science to do experiment ... i him and he is not as pale as yesterday ... but ... he keep saying bad thing of me .. i juz nth l0l ... then is chinese ... he keep calling me friend instead of baobeiix ... i say wad and he said not calling me .. so i tell my friend said next time he call friend dun talk to him ... then he call again ... i was laughing and never answer him coz .... in front got many people and he maybe alling them mah ... he said wear spec de gal ... and there are few girl who wear specs also ... then he sid wear red spec de gal ... i look and i am the only 1 who wear red spec ... so i took it off ... and he call me and wanted to lend 2 dollar from me but i think and i drag the question away ... then recess ... he went for basketball tournment ... and the whole class was quiet and without him there .. i juz feel like not comfortable ... juz wish he there ... then is geography .. never bring books l0l ... then is english ... said real i like the english teacher ... she is damn nice and good and many people in our class like her ... nothing special in this 2 class then is assembly ... walao damn boring l0l ... performance by 1E1 and 2E1 ... then nothing le l0l ... go interchange with friends to buy birthday present for another him ... then they said dun wan there buy le ... then take bus again go back home l0l ... then nothing le l0l ...
FallenAngel
27/06/2008
7.24pm
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Today was thursday ... i try to forget him right from the time that i when into school .... i never talk to him ... play with him ... and i ignore him ... he call me i dun care ... i dun look at him ... and when he come to beside me ... i will walk away ... after the recess ... it was chinese and he told another another another him wad i write .. and another another another him tease on me ... i heard him saying that ... he never stead wif me until ... and he said i suck ... i was so sad when hearing that ... he even wanted to trick me and he said that the gal that he like is outside ... i never saw it and i noe there is no girl outside ... and even if there is ... i also won see it coz .. i dun wan to noe who it is and how it look ... then he and another another another him start to disturb me ... he take my water bottle and spray water on me but i ignore it ... and he starting spraying more water on me ... then i cry ... i cry not because of the water but is because of the thing he said bout me nad the way he treat me ... i juz wanna forget him but i dunno y cant i do it ... then it was art .... he started to feel sick and keep having running nose ... another another him lend the cube from me and he give it to him ... he was throwing the cube on the floor i cannot think of a way to get it back ... another him said if u give me 2 dollar i will give u back so i take out 2 dollar from my wallet and i give him to exchange my cube back and he suddenly said dun wan ... i dunno y he dun wan and he keep throwing my cube on the floor .... i was so angry and sad but i cant do anything ... when i got my cube back ... it was more nice to turn ... finally i noe he throw my cube is to make it turn more nicely ... after that it was CME which is Civil Moral Education ... he was looking more pale then ever ... i dunno y he sick until cry i can be so heartpain ... i already wanna to forget him le y he sick i still so heartpain ? ... after that my friend give him 2 panadol and he ate it ... then i dunno y he suddenly dunno go where dissappear for 1 period i was looking at the door wishing him to come back ... after that CME it was Contact Time and after that he came back ... i was so happy and today he got basketball training and on 3.00pm plus plus my friend said they saw him and he was feeling better as if he has recovered and he still can play joke ... i finally can release my heart ... knowing that he is better i am happy and i dun wanna let him noe i still care for him ... like that he hate me more and i can stop liking him ... i can only wish he can play more basketball and sweat the hot sweat out and he won have fever le ... he said he like a girl from the school and she was sec 1 the moment he said it i noe it was her ... and when another him guess it he said ' fucked you ' that mean i was not wrong it was really her ... but at here i can only tell him ... wish u and her can have a happy moment ever ....
FallenAngel
26/06/2008
8.47pm
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Today was a not bad and not good day for me ... Yesterday night chat with another him ... talk a lot rubbish and ... i feel that i starting to treat him as a friend ... i think he knew it he will be happy ... still the same ... finally i noe he is not angry ... still the same way calling me ' baobeiix ' ... but i noe he is still playing even if he tell them he is not playing .... he said he like a girl from this school ... sec 1 and not from our class ... the moment he said it .. i noe it was someone else ... he ask me whether i sad .... i deny it ... but actually i am sad little bit l0l .. and i started feeling to let him go ... i then realise that i have been a silly girl since 5th of may .... i really wish that we can juz be friend and not FAKE girlfriend and boyfriend ... really really wish that ... no point playing FAKE girlfriend and boyfriend with my own real feeling ... so ... i decided to forget him again ... today .. i actually decided to slap him with my own hands but i cant do it ... i finally noe that i really fallen for him .... another thing is that today ... i talk to another another him in cantonese and he said that i never said ' i love u ' this word to him and another another him ask me to said in cantonese which he cannot understand .... i said that and i got 1 words in return ... ' YUCKS '
i at that moment then finally noe that i should let him go ...
i should stop asking him to be FAKE girlfriend and boyfriend with me ...
i should continue be his friend and not be his FAKE girlfriend and boyfriend ...
i should give my blessing to him and the girl he like and not be his FAKE girlfriend and boyfriend
i should continue to forget him and not be his FAKE girlfriend and boyfriend ...
i finally then really realise that ....
i finally then i noe wad i am doing is wrong ... not a little wrong ... is very serious wrong ...
i really hope that i can go back to the past and not accept that stead on 05/05/2008 ...
maybe he could be happen if i have done this earlier
From today onwards i want to stop thinking him and be a single and concentrate on my studies ...
FallenAngel
25/06/2008
4.37pm
Monday, June 23, 2008
Today was a sad day for me ... I made him angry ... H0w ? .... I actually decided to forgot him from my brain ... but today he call me ' BaoBeiix ' i started to recall wad he do to me back ... i was so sad ... and in music class , he keep playing with other girl ... and i was so jealous but i neversaid it out ... I was happy that he was in the same group as me ... The necklace is actually bought to remember me and him ... but he said it was my boyfriend ... i never even had any boyfriend ... i dunno whether he counted a not ... but i am happy that he still care for me a little bit l0l .... at IPW .. which i was angry and sad most ... The stupid fucking teacher ... go to blogger and link someone website also tio 2 demerit ... he also got 2 demerit coz .... he was at my place and i was at other people place and the blogger site was open .... and he saw my email address ... i was so scare and worried coz .. i dun wanna him to change the way he treat me ... then i told him that me and that person its 5 years ago .. when i was p2 ... i dunno whether he believe it a not .. but i am still a little bit scare ... juz hope he won angry l0l ... in class when i was feeling down about him ... he cry .... i dunno whether he really cry or pretend to cry .. they said he cry ... at IPW ... com lab ... after tio scold by teacher ... he sit at my place so i go to friend place to sit l0l .. then the fucking teacher scold me ask me where i sit ... i dun wanna said out wan coz ... i scare he tio teacher scold but i no choice but to said it .... hope he understand it ... i write this in my book when i was feeling down ....
05052008
06052008
next is ....
09052008
20052008
Meaning is ....
05/05/2008 to 06/05/2008 is when he ask me for stead and he never talk to me on this 2 days ...
Next meaning is ....
09/05/2008 to 20/05/2008 is when he was playing girlfriend and boyfriend with me ...
i really like this moment and i hope that it won stop but on 20/05/2008 it stop ...
FallenAngel
24/06/2008
3.08pm
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Today, it was a bit drizzling, we went to escape theme park ....
When we first enter, we will very happy and excited ....
First, we play the Kite Flyer ... Not that fun ....
Second, we play the Rainbow ... wow ... it is surprisingly fun l0l ..... bout 9 storey high l0l ....
Third, we play the Pirate Ship .... its is so SCARY !!! ... as if u are falling like that ....
Fourth, we play the Inverter ... wah ... SUPER SCARY ... 360 degrees turn ... as if the world has over turn ...
After that i started feeling vomiting .... rest for a while .... it is so funny that i still have the appetites to eat sweet corn !!! ...
After that we went to the Central Pavilion to play other games .... such as tossing and throwing ...
Wasted $25 ....
After that we went to the Wild Wild Wet Foodcourt to eat and we went back home ....
We spend $39.60 on Tickets, ( Family Package ) $25 and eating $20.45 .... Altogether is $85.05 ...
This was a fun and unforgetable day .... Make me feeling uneasy for the whole day after playing the Inverter .....
Fallen Angel
11/06/2008
6.27pm
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