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Tuesday, September 9, 2008
T0day is tuesday .. 1 0f my saddest dayy ... siian ... m0rniing g0 mac ... dhhen g0 sku ... dhhen recess .... dhhen we sittiing 0n the t0p table ... l00k d0wn can see dhhem ... dhhen less0n ... dhhen i dunn0 sms wadd t0 hiim .. dhhen i saidd ... n0w dhhen i n0e i am n0t imp0rtant t0 euu ... he never reply my sms ... thiis cann pr0ve that i really n0t that imp0rtant t0 hiim ... dhhen he saidd after sku talk t0 mii ... i fuckkiing scare .... i scare wadd he wanna saidd t0 mii is wadd i dunn wanna t0 liistenn dee ... s0 i keepp runniing awayy ... durriing less0nn ... i use penn t0 draw ... a heart shape ... put ' s ' insiide ... dhhen put ' tephen ' next t0 it ... dhhen i draw a biig heart ar0und it ... the ' heart shape stephen ' is h0w imp0rtant he is t0 mii ... the big heart shape ar0und it is h0w much i l0ve hiim ... after kn0wiing that i am n0t imp0rtant t0 hiim at all ... i went t0 the toilet straiight away .. wanna washh the away wadd i had wiite 0n my handd ... i can washh away the ' heart shape stephen ' but i cant washh awayy the biig heartt .... n0 matter h0w many s0app i putt ... h0w hardd i rubb ... rubb till my hand the skiin als0 c0me 0ut ... i still cant washh awayy ... dhhen i keepp askkiing myselff ... y cant i washh away the biig heart ... dhhen finally i n0e the answer ... it is because that my l0ve t0 hiim is t0tally unchangable ... dhhen i askk myselff ... cann i l0ve hiim lesser dhhen usuall ... dhhen my answer n0 need t0 thiink .. straiight away c0me fr0m my miind ... it saidd cann0t ... dhhen after sku he keep f0ll0wiing mii ... he call mii he saidd that he never g0 m0dern dance ... i sh0ckked tii0 and my heart was lyke g0iing t0 breakk ... dhhen he siit next t0 the bus - st0p there ... watchiing mii buyiing bubbletea ... he call mii i diid n0t plann t0 answerr hiis ph0ne de ... but yiliin dunn0 g0 sms hiim wadd thiing dhhen i saidd t0 yiliin ... i dare euu walkk t0 there ... n0t dare euu sms hiim ... dhhen yilin saidd ok ... dhhen she really walkk t0 there ...whenn at there lerhh ... dunn0 wann saiddd wadd ....dhhen he askk mii g0 behind ... dhhen we chat chat a while .... dhhen he saidd bye bye t0 mii ... dun0 y everytiime he saidd byebye t0 mii ... i will lyke fuckkiiing sadd ...dhhen i f0ld my skiirt ... fuckkiing sh0rt .. but i still saidd it l0ng ... c0z ... he dun let mii f0ld my skiirt ... but i insiisted ... i pr0persely f0lded till s0 sh0rt de ... i wanna t0 see h0w he resp0nd ... but he did n0t even resp0nd anythiing ... dhhen he saidd bye bye t0 mii agaiin ... KNN i was fuckkiing angry and sadd .. dhhen i walk away wiith yiliin and lynette ... dhhen i hiide behiind a wall and i criied ... the 2 ah ma g0 tell hiim ... as he did n0t plann t0 c0me ... dhhen he c0me liia0 i wiipe away my tears and he askk mii wadd thiing ... i saidd n0thiing ... dhhen he saidd byebye t0 mii agaiin ... zzz wh0le heart fall int0 pieces ... while walkkiing t0 fiind dhhem ... my tears burst 0ut ...dhhen he chase mii t0 sku ... i ign0red hiim ... he call mii i never answer ... c0z ... i dunn wann answerr ... dhhen i at sku ... i start t0 buy l0t 0f thiing t0 eat t0 make myself n0 feeliing ... dhhem after that ... g0 t0ilet v0miit .... =,= '' t00 full liia0 ... dhhen g0 change cl0thes f0r m0dern dance ... dhhen he dun wan c0me in t0 m0dern dance ... after m0dern dance fiinishh ... he f0ll0w r0cky h0me ... dhhen the m0st funny thiing is that .. he call mii ... i dun iintendd t0 answerr ... dhhen i pass the ph0ne t0 yiliin ... yiliin helpp mii answerr ... and he th0ught yiliin is mii ... dhhen talk talk talk ... dhhen yiliin askk hiim ... d0 euu n0e wh0 i am ... he saidd 0livia ...haha but i am n0t the wann wh0 is listeniing ... is yiliin ... dhhen mii yiliin and huiliing and jiia yii keep 0n laughiing ... zzz n0w regret lerhh ... y i g0 laugh at hiim ... he is my 0wn steadd ... dhhen i feel that we play t00 muchh lerhh ... s0 i call hiim backk tell hiim that wann is n0t mii ... is yiliin ... he dunn beliieve ... =.='' haiizz ... he is treatiing mii s0 c0ldly juz because 0f spyy ... SPY !!! ... even if dunn have spy ... he als0 treat mii s0 c0ldly de larhh ... zz ... i cant standd the way he is treatiing mii n0w ... i cant juzz t0lerate it ... waiit till 1 dayy ... i g0 cut wriist diie liia0 maybe he m0re happy ... c0z ... he can ji0 s0me0ne he lyke ... maybe that is the beautiifull endiing f0r thiis st0ry ... zz siian ... askk hiim dun treat mii s0 c0ldly still wann try first ... askk euu bec0me sweeter veryy diffcult mehh .. askk euu treat mii m0re niicer veryy diffcult mehh .. askk euu giive mii ur attentii0n verry diffcult mehh ... askk euu take m0re tiime peii mii verry diffcult mehh ? ... 3 m0re week t0 exam ... after exam ... g0iing t0 be h0liidayy lerhh ...durriing the h0liidayy ... there is n0thiing we can d0 ... 0ur relati0nshiip c0uld juz be further and further ... if he still treat mii very c0ldly durriing this 3 weekk ... he sure will regret it ... zz i n0t wann hiim t0 treat mii g00d in thiis 3 week but i wann hiim t0 treat mii g00d everytiime but n0t giiviing mii c0ld sh0ulder andd keep 0n sayiing byebye take care all thiis thiing t0 mii ... haizz ... dunn0 y heaven dunn wann let mii washh awayy the biig heart in my hand ... maybe ... dunn0 ... dunn wann saidd lerhh ... saidd s0me m0re my tears g0iing burst 0ut lerhh ... but i will remember that i am n0t imp0rtant t0 hiim this thiing ... haizz ... buaiis
FallenAngel
090908
7.08pm
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